Happy Days

Hello hello. If you've talked to me in the last... 2days haha then you'll know I'm in a happy chap mood!

Oh my gosh like finally Tai you depressed mudda ass. Shut up you.

There's ups and downs in life alright ?! And finally, I'm good azz nowadays. Let's get to know why.

Um, I think the biggest thing is Uni? And the reason why it's only the last 2 days is because yeah, sunday and monday sucked, well the 'thinking about uni' part of sunday was. But besides those usual lame days, it's all goods. And y'know what the stupid thing is? There's nothing to worry about on those days anyway. It's just like, the feels man, the feels. The feels of having uni and work haha. But that's life so, gotta be a big boy and suck it up. So yeah that's pretty much it, I finished maths assignment today (thursdays) which was a bit easy, and now I'm keen azz for the weekends and holidays !

With Christian life, it's awesome. *Gonna say something big alert* Thing is, I kind of know what it's like to have people up in your face talking about Christians and Jesus and God and so on. So yeah if you kind of notice, I try stay as discreet around my non-christian friends, family etc so they won't feel uncomfortable, just saying so I could get that out there haha. But yeah I will say a bit more on this blog... because it's about me! Haha. So yeah things are going good.

I taught bible study revision last week friday, because Anthony (youth leader) had GAMSAT to study for. It was nerve wracking, yeah like oral presentation in front of your best friends, still crazy huh? But I was happy I could help.

Sunday was our inter church fun volleyball comp, my church VGC vs. Darra church. We lost 3-0 sets LOL but nah it was good fun... HAHA! But really was good and I hope our team comes back a lot stronger.

Um yeah, looking forward to things like the 'schedule' is... Friday morning clean up church. Friday night easter service at church. Saturday arvo-night dinner with youth at Anthony's. Sunday church and next week Thurs-Sunday is church camp! Sooooo keen for all these things. And of course doing a bit of study(hopefully.. ;)..) haha and other whatnot things in between the events, go out sometime with friends, chill and hang owtz ya mean ma nigz dope az brew fresh beanz. 

Lastly? relationships? Well with my ex, we talk sometimes, sometimes it sucks, sometimes its decent... haha but nah its nothing like, fwoosh off mah shoulders doesn't bother me anymore.

Relationship with Anthony. Don't think I mentioned him before, he's a youth leader and he's only 2 years older than I am. But to me he's like, a role model, brother, mentor and yeah all those good brotherly things I find in him. And overall just an amazing person, so yeah we got to hang out and catch up today so I think it was good. 

I want to know how everyone is going, because it sucks not knowing the bad things happening in others' lives because when it sucks for them, they need you. So that's why we should all be there for one another, always.

Idk why YOU, YES YOU <-- LOL. Yeah idk why anyone reads my blog, it's just.... all text haha. But enjoy reading about my life.

Feeling great at the moment, if you are too, remember this moment, this free feeling and be thankful for it. If you're not feeling too good, I would say, express it. Push through this obstacle, find help from friends and family, there will be someone who's willing to listen, and if not, why not me? I'm all ears to someone who has problems and wants to let it off. Why not, anyone? Be open, listen to other people's lives and empathise in what they're going through. 

This is life, it gets tough, it gets difficult. But you are never alone. Cause then together we can pull through and be happy ! muha, muhaha,.. MUWAHAHAHAHAH

Peace and Love <3

Aww yeahh

HarrooooooooOH! Finally a post with nothing sad in it! (well that's a bit sad)

Hmm yknow this last week, I've had quite a lot of moments where I thought damn, this would be a cool story to write on my blog but now I probably forgot and will have to think hard to get it back :(.

Oh yeah sorry this post won't have pictures too because... I don't take any o.o

Yeah oh gosh I really can't think of anything so I'll just start off with how I'm feeling :)

Feel great! Haha well not exactly great but good. Probably great tomorrow when I get to do some uni work and go to the gym, since monday is so packed I don't do either. Oh yeah so like, in the last post, the only really sad thing was about my ex right? Well...

To start off I'll talk about this girl named Judy <-- I just remembered how we talked about my blog and your name haha. Well yeah so Judy is a girl from my church who I've always noticed like, have a similar kind of thinking like me kinda... high school lameness feeling yknow? How you feel crappy and all because of pretty much 'high school drama'. So anyways, I decided I wanted to take her out to chill at sakuraya one night just to like, talk dnm and stuff. And so we did. And it was awesome like, yeah I just love talking and just sharing with a friend, it's something really underrated I'd say.

So yeah we had a good time and I told her I wanted our relationship to be like mine and Anthony's, because Anthony cares a lot about me and takes me out as the 'older' friend or brother in Christ just to pretty much share and live life together which is something amazing. So yup, I pray I can care for Judy and that we can kinda work through life and help each other :)

Oh yeah so like, my ex found out about mine and Judy's chill sesh, then we had a convo. And I was to make sure this is our last(until we're fine and over the split), and so I did. It was good as for me, I said what I wanted to and just..., yeah perfect outcome. 

I know theres more but I'll just talk about Thanh-Thanhs birthday party and end the post(SOO MUCH TEXT TO READ every post right? :( sowweeee).

Oh wait! Bible study was on friday was SUPADUPADUBSTEPBOWOWawesome! Just saying.

So anyways. TT's was good because everyone got to catch up since uni! I just loved again, talking to everyone and yeah. Something so simple but man, I cherish those moments. I also like staying sober actually, of course there are times I want to drink, a lot of times actually. But I'd rather stay sober looking after those idiots -COUGHmoniquechandavongCOUGH- and drive them home. Yeah.. idk I just like to. Probably won't drink at Jay's this week too but oh well :)

Hmm.. I've come to establish I will ALWAYS sook on sunday night about uni. haha but nah I will learn to get over it and slowly, better myself. Yeah tryna make 'better' a verb kinda thing lol.

But yeah.. post getting way too long and I just remembered some more things so I'll say..

Stay humble! Stay happy and may God bless us everyday

P.s. Interchurch volley on sunday = gangstafullysick and lawn mowing those kids' house was awesome, soooo much love for those kids <3

The Better

Heyo! Sup sups to my 2nd post, The Better!

It's been only a week? (I think) But I think I have a lottttt to talk about because well. I was really depressed in the last post right? Well, that whole week. I spent every single day, just thinking. Thinking so freaking much like just, floating away in my mind constantly.

I wanted to blog because I'm better now, a lot better. But a part of me also didn't want to, because Cindy reminded me that my next post would need pictures of like unicorn poop(marshmallows) or something. Spoiler alert, I don't have any great pictures haha. GUARANTEE'D PRETTY POST NEXT TIME! (sorry)

So, I think the whole start of becoming better goes to this paragraph topic, Christianity (ooooh dat colour). I didn't mention in the last post so I'll explain quickly. Last year I started Christian life, was amazing, I drift off, November I declared to myself leaving that life. Declared I will be coming back, but still did nothing and felt nothing from God.

However, now, I think I'm feeling it. When I say feel it, I'm basically describing the feeling that I would say, all believers feel. The love, the grace, something only my God can provide. I said 'think' right? Because I'm not sure, but thats the thing. I'm ready to try, and go church and read even if I don't feel anything, so that I can.

That must've been very confusing. But anyways. Now that I'm heading back to Christ, I know. I just know that if I do, I'll be happy, at peace. Which is how Christ helps me with everything else in life.

Just yesterday, I was depressed because uni was the next day, with all this homework I hadn't done because of the packed weekend that I supposedly left for uni work. Yeah that's it, I was so depressed because it's just so hard. But I told myself, Life is hard. Everything worth it in life is hard. Sounds so simple and like, repetitive right? But it's true, and I need to remind myself of it. 

What else is there... I went to the Lake with Anita yesterday. I felt so good, I hope I get hooked on exercising and don't stop again. Feels amazing.

I guess, I saved the... biggest story at the moment in my life for last?

My past girlfriend. She's been on my mind, the entire week. Out of nowhere. We broke up more than 3months ago, and we lasted around 5months. I've never felt so... crushed since after the breakup. I never thought a breakup could make me feel so sad. On HowIMetYourMother, one person said the length to get over a breakup is half the amount you've been dating, I know it's a show but I've always kept that in mind. It makes me wonder, how long will it take for me to be truly happy? It sucks, I stuffed up. But it does make sense. I stuffed up and I'm paying for it. Its just, this heartache is killing me, so bad. 

Damn that sounds depressed. But really, I'm just happy because I know God will provide.

Be Happy.

Life is hard. Everything worth it in life is hard.

God will provide.