Chapters and Moments

Man has it been a long time since! Y'know what, I want this to be long so I'm gonna chuck in some random pictures so I don't bore the crap out of whoever reads this lol. So where to start.

Uni, friends, family, church, games, gym, outings, life.. hm.

Btw when I talk about something like Uni, ill be talking about ALL the weeks combined where I haven't posted yeah?

I know why people wanna take pics of their young relatives now, and now I think most of the time, the pictures doesn't show even HALF the cuteness they have! My niece is SOOO cute I smile every time I see her.

So with uni, its been chilled. Chilled for all those weeks Tai? Yeah pretty much. Not because it's not hard, its because I'm just the chilled one. I last minute assessments and just pass them. So yeah not much to say. Also I've had these 2 past weeks where I skipped so many classes, not good and all and definitely not doing that again! 

So now, I have an ICT video due monday, 2500 word assignment (but its 50%, so all that chilling on this subject will stop this coming week... and then chill again!). Oh and a PE teaching prac on thursday. Besides those 3 due this coming week. I just have 2 exams on the second week of exam period, so yeah. I pray all is good, I actually need to pray for a lot of help, because I'm just scraping on some subjects. Just a pass is good, but I still want to guarantee the pass. Man I really need to pray for the best! 

Speaking of prayers, I'll talk about my relationship with Christ these last few weeks. I'd have to say most of the weeks, it hasn't been what it should be. I'm lazy, I don't read of pray, or do anything to please and bring glory to God. That's pretty much it, oh and I was okay with it. No effort was put in to do better, I was simply ok with it. But just this last week, brother in christ and youth leader Anthony gave his first sermon. And afterwards, I completely understood what he was talking about, and also why he did that. He basically woke us all up, that is it. So yeah, right now, I'm slowly(maybe too slow) being myself closer to God and trying to do what I can to live my life for him. tehe :D <-- LOL

Also! Brisbane will be hosting the next big national camp for vietnamese Christian youth? I believe. And yeah so Anthony is basically the Leader of ALLLL lol and some people are helping out as core committee members like secretary, treasurer etc, and theres teams to cover all the jobs needed for camp like transport, post-camp, a bit of security haha, first aid, worship, care and some others.

I'm one of the two team leaders of the care team! Oh yeah! So we have to know everything about the camp, and be the face of the camp. Our team is encourage people to participate, help them with any trouble they face, be the info, guides, and most importantly, care, so like, just be there y'know? Be caring... MAN ITS HARD TO EXPLAIN. 

Really want to suit up again, I think I look good but only when im skinny!

Er family is normal, nothing much. Just thought I'd tell readers how family always goes for me lol. Friends, outings same thing, sunnybank a lot, and yeah NOT MUCH TO SAY...

With gym ! Man I am so fat, I hate feeling like this, looking like this. Well really, I've always been like this, this year lol. But yeah I was so slow to do something about it. Today is the 3rd day I've been back into losing weight... pray that I won't stop so I can feel better about myself overall. 

"The competitor to be feared the most is the one who never worries about others at all, and goes on making himself better ALL THE TIME."

I love basketball, it would be my favourite sport and I will be training and gymming to have a skinny basketball body.

Since I've been chilling so much, I play A LOT of Dota, I spend so much time playing it, wayyy too much time. 

Lastly, I didn't name up  the top, relationships.

WARNING, THE FOLLOWING IS REAL STUPID but yeah all g brah learn from your mistakes.

SURPRISE NIGGAS.

Didn't think I'd talk about relationships right? Ok well. I became close to a friend since ages ago and well yeah, we bond really well and know each other so well. So, I dated her, We dated for a week, and and that week was gay. Just no intimacy or something like passion or basically, love. So yeah we had a MUTUAL breakup and now its all g. ALL G. That is all... lol. Now I'm just like man, not even in highschool anymore and I made this chapter of stupidity in my life book. Anyways.

Snap back to single life again, well I don't even wanna count that relationship so single life has been awhile now.... Er whatever count or not but YEAH WHAT AM I SAYING.

Just thought I'd say I'm single now. And I am always that guy that wants 'the one' as soon as possible, can't wait!

I just published this post and then saw the title.. JUST QUICKLY(man so much text). Chapters is obviously that part of my life just recently where I dated one of my close friends and that it was a mistake. And moments is now and is SO commonly the reason why I blog, I felt crap, I just couldn't control my emotions and got sad about everything stupidly. Anyways, I'm all fine now about teaching like a MILLION words and also talking to Cindy. :)

Just a pic of 2012 family camp. 

Besides that, I pray for each and aspect of my life to always include God and I pray I'll remember and trust in his plans for me.

Also praying for all those that are feeling down, have assessments and getting sick in the winter!

Hey you! Stay warm buddy,

Peace and Love :)

Happy Days

Hello hello. If you've talked to me in the last... 2days haha then you'll know I'm in a happy chap mood!

Oh my gosh like finally Tai you depressed mudda ass. Shut up you.

There's ups and downs in life alright ?! And finally, I'm good azz nowadays. Let's get to know why.

Um, I think the biggest thing is Uni? And the reason why it's only the last 2 days is because yeah, sunday and monday sucked, well the 'thinking about uni' part of sunday was. But besides those usual lame days, it's all goods. And y'know what the stupid thing is? There's nothing to worry about on those days anyway. It's just like, the feels man, the feels. The feels of having uni and work haha. But that's life so, gotta be a big boy and suck it up. So yeah that's pretty much it, I finished maths assignment today (thursdays) which was a bit easy, and now I'm keen azz for the weekends and holidays !

With Christian life, it's awesome. *Gonna say something big alert* Thing is, I kind of know what it's like to have people up in your face talking about Christians and Jesus and God and so on. So yeah if you kind of notice, I try stay as discreet around my non-christian friends, family etc so they won't feel uncomfortable, just saying so I could get that out there haha. But yeah I will say a bit more on this blog... because it's about me! Haha. So yeah things are going good.

I taught bible study revision last week friday, because Anthony (youth leader) had GAMSAT to study for. It was nerve wracking, yeah like oral presentation in front of your best friends, still crazy huh? But I was happy I could help.

Sunday was our inter church fun volleyball comp, my church VGC vs. Darra church. We lost 3-0 sets LOL but nah it was good fun... HAHA! But really was good and I hope our team comes back a lot stronger.

Um yeah, looking forward to things like the 'schedule' is... Friday morning clean up church. Friday night easter service at church. Saturday arvo-night dinner with youth at Anthony's. Sunday church and next week Thurs-Sunday is church camp! Sooooo keen for all these things. And of course doing a bit of study(hopefully.. ;)..) haha and other whatnot things in between the events, go out sometime with friends, chill and hang owtz ya mean ma nigz dope az brew fresh beanz. 

Lastly? relationships? Well with my ex, we talk sometimes, sometimes it sucks, sometimes its decent... haha but nah its nothing like, fwoosh off mah shoulders doesn't bother me anymore.

Relationship with Anthony. Don't think I mentioned him before, he's a youth leader and he's only 2 years older than I am. But to me he's like, a role model, brother, mentor and yeah all those good brotherly things I find in him. And overall just an amazing person, so yeah we got to hang out and catch up today so I think it was good. 

I want to know how everyone is going, because it sucks not knowing the bad things happening in others' lives because when it sucks for them, they need you. So that's why we should all be there for one another, always.

Idk why YOU, YES YOU <-- LOL. Yeah idk why anyone reads my blog, it's just.... all text haha. But enjoy reading about my life.

Feeling great at the moment, if you are too, remember this moment, this free feeling and be thankful for it. If you're not feeling too good, I would say, express it. Push through this obstacle, find help from friends and family, there will be someone who's willing to listen, and if not, why not me? I'm all ears to someone who has problems and wants to let it off. Why not, anyone? Be open, listen to other people's lives and empathise in what they're going through. 

This is life, it gets tough, it gets difficult. But you are never alone. Cause then together we can pull through and be happy ! muha, muhaha,.. MUWAHAHAHAHAH

Peace and Love <3

Aww yeahh

HarrooooooooOH! Finally a post with nothing sad in it! (well that's a bit sad)

Hmm yknow this last week, I've had quite a lot of moments where I thought damn, this would be a cool story to write on my blog but now I probably forgot and will have to think hard to get it back :(.

Oh yeah sorry this post won't have pictures too because... I don't take any o.o

Yeah oh gosh I really can't think of anything so I'll just start off with how I'm feeling :)

Feel great! Haha well not exactly great but good. Probably great tomorrow when I get to do some uni work and go to the gym, since monday is so packed I don't do either. Oh yeah so like, in the last post, the only really sad thing was about my ex right? Well...

To start off I'll talk about this girl named Judy <-- I just remembered how we talked about my blog and your name haha. Well yeah so Judy is a girl from my church who I've always noticed like, have a similar kind of thinking like me kinda... high school lameness feeling yknow? How you feel crappy and all because of pretty much 'high school drama'. So anyways, I decided I wanted to take her out to chill at sakuraya one night just to like, talk dnm and stuff. And so we did. And it was awesome like, yeah I just love talking and just sharing with a friend, it's something really underrated I'd say.

So yeah we had a good time and I told her I wanted our relationship to be like mine and Anthony's, because Anthony cares a lot about me and takes me out as the 'older' friend or brother in Christ just to pretty much share and live life together which is something amazing. So yup, I pray I can care for Judy and that we can kinda work through life and help each other :)

Oh yeah so like, my ex found out about mine and Judy's chill sesh, then we had a convo. And I was to make sure this is our last(until we're fine and over the split), and so I did. It was good as for me, I said what I wanted to and just..., yeah perfect outcome. 

I know theres more but I'll just talk about Thanh-Thanhs birthday party and end the post(SOO MUCH TEXT TO READ every post right? :( sowweeee).

Oh wait! Bible study was on friday was SUPADUPADUBSTEPBOWOWawesome! Just saying.

So anyways. TT's was good because everyone got to catch up since uni! I just loved again, talking to everyone and yeah. Something so simple but man, I cherish those moments. I also like staying sober actually, of course there are times I want to drink, a lot of times actually. But I'd rather stay sober looking after those idiots -COUGHmoniquechandavongCOUGH- and drive them home. Yeah.. idk I just like to. Probably won't drink at Jay's this week too but oh well :)

Hmm.. I've come to establish I will ALWAYS sook on sunday night about uni. haha but nah I will learn to get over it and slowly, better myself. Yeah tryna make 'better' a verb kinda thing lol.

But yeah.. post getting way too long and I just remembered some more things so I'll say..

Stay humble! Stay happy and may God bless us everyday

P.s. Interchurch volley on sunday = gangstafullysick and lawn mowing those kids' house was awesome, soooo much love for those kids <3

The Better

Heyo! Sup sups to my 2nd post, The Better!

It's been only a week? (I think) But I think I have a lottttt to talk about because well. I was really depressed in the last post right? Well, that whole week. I spent every single day, just thinking. Thinking so freaking much like just, floating away in my mind constantly.

I wanted to blog because I'm better now, a lot better. But a part of me also didn't want to, because Cindy reminded me that my next post would need pictures of like unicorn poop(marshmallows) or something. Spoiler alert, I don't have any great pictures haha. GUARANTEE'D PRETTY POST NEXT TIME! (sorry)

So, I think the whole start of becoming better goes to this paragraph topic, Christianity (ooooh dat colour). I didn't mention in the last post so I'll explain quickly. Last year I started Christian life, was amazing, I drift off, November I declared to myself leaving that life. Declared I will be coming back, but still did nothing and felt nothing from God.

However, now, I think I'm feeling it. When I say feel it, I'm basically describing the feeling that I would say, all believers feel. The love, the grace, something only my God can provide. I said 'think' right? Because I'm not sure, but thats the thing. I'm ready to try, and go church and read even if I don't feel anything, so that I can.

That must've been very confusing. But anyways. Now that I'm heading back to Christ, I know. I just know that if I do, I'll be happy, at peace. Which is how Christ helps me with everything else in life.

Just yesterday, I was depressed because uni was the next day, with all this homework I hadn't done because of the packed weekend that I supposedly left for uni work. Yeah that's it, I was so depressed because it's just so hard. But I told myself, Life is hard. Everything worth it in life is hard. Sounds so simple and like, repetitive right? But it's true, and I need to remind myself of it. 

What else is there... I went to the Lake with Anita yesterday. I felt so good, I hope I get hooked on exercising and don't stop again. Feels amazing.

I guess, I saved the... biggest story at the moment in my life for last?

My past girlfriend. She's been on my mind, the entire week. Out of nowhere. We broke up more than 3months ago, and we lasted around 5months. I've never felt so... crushed since after the breakup. I never thought a breakup could make me feel so sad. On HowIMetYourMother, one person said the length to get over a breakup is half the amount you've been dating, I know it's a show but I've always kept that in mind. It makes me wonder, how long will it take for me to be truly happy? It sucks, I stuffed up. But it does make sense. I stuffed up and I'm paying for it. Its just, this heartache is killing me, so bad. 

Damn that sounds depressed. But really, I'm just happy because I know God will provide.

Be Happy.

Life is hard. Everything worth it in life is hard.

God will provide.

Hi, I'm Tai Hong

Man has blogger changed a lot, I'm sure I have a blog but it said I'm not an author of any blog, so here is a new one. 

It's 2:05am, Tuesday therefore I have Uni in about 9 hours but waking up earlier. This moment, right now is like sort of a depressed down kind of moment. I think I've been feeling like this for the past 24hr or more. Why do I feel this way.

I want to clean off the last post of my old blog. So here I go. 

The girl I was interested in, is seriously seeing someone I know. I'm not hurt at all, because nothing ever happened between us and we're good friends. Since the last blog, around December, some things happened. 

I declared(sort of) that I would return to God and the Christian life. It's not like I'm not a part of it now, but I'm not feeling it, nothing at all. Quite simple but. 

I wanted to get back with my ex, we were going to, but eventually, I myself, ended it, again.

My friend's sister taught me something very valuable. That the one year after graduation, you learn a lot, and become wiser, smarter and more experienced. I know it's only been 3 or 4 months since graduation, but from all the events post school till pre-uni, I know I've definitely changed a lot. Even though it may not seem like it.

It's the usual, summer holidays weight gain again. Probably sitting well at 85kgs now. I will definitely get back to working out and exercising soon. 

Hmm what else is there. The closest friend I've ever had, Cindy, returned to Melbourne to live. Perhaps it's the holidays, but I've yet to feel the affects of her departure. Though I do think, it's not much of a burst affect, but the soft, slow feeling of your friend leaving forever.

Now Orion's Belt(OB) consisting of Khang, Richard, Trinh, Cindy and myself has only 4 members here in Brisbane. OB hasn't done much at all.

So why am I feeling down. Well for one, the weather is disgusting. Man I had a good idea of the problems I'm feeling ATM, but I can't think of anything. Perhaps it's starting alone, oh yeah that's right. It's the last few days of doing absolutely nothing. I need fresh air. And now, with starting Uni, this, this dense atmosphere I feel becomes worse. I need help. However I will of course, get over this at some point.

What am I doing now? Fuck, let's smash this bitch ass feeling.

Hating uni, living like shit, eating shit, always dreaming about 'the one', doing shit all, sad and angry.

What I will do from now on.

- Exercise daily

- Clean my room

- Eat well

- Go to school happily

- Go out !

- Mostly, be productive, don't waste time

- Get all the shit I need to do, done

- Be happy, be humble, be loving, kill with kindness

Be happy.

I will post for anyone to read, I want to be an open book.

But hopefully the next post will be filled with awesome stuff, like pictures and sick as reflections of mad as days filled with rainbow unicorn fart aw shiet.