Man has blogger changed a lot, I'm sure I have a blog but it said I'm not an author of any blog, so here is a new one.
It's 2:05am, Tuesday therefore I have Uni in about 9 hours but waking up earlier. This moment, right now is like sort of a depressed down kind of moment. I think I've been feeling like this for the past 24hr or more. Why do I feel this way.
I want to clean off the last post of my old blog. So here I go.
The girl I was interested in, is seriously seeing someone I know. I'm not hurt at all, because nothing ever happened between us and we're good friends. Since the last blog, around December, some things happened.
I declared(sort of) that I would return to God and the Christian life. It's not like I'm not a part of it now, but I'm not feeling it, nothing at all. Quite simple but.
I wanted to get back with my ex, we were going to, but eventually, I myself, ended it, again.
My friend's sister taught me something very valuable. That the one year after graduation, you learn a lot, and become wiser, smarter and more experienced. I know it's only been 3 or 4 months since graduation, but from all the events post school till pre-uni, I know I've definitely changed a lot. Even though it may not seem like it.
It's the usual, summer holidays weight gain again. Probably sitting well at 85kgs now. I will definitely get back to working out and exercising soon.
Hmm what else is there. The closest friend I've ever had, Cindy, returned to Melbourne to live. Perhaps it's the holidays, but I've yet to feel the affects of her departure. Though I do think, it's not much of a burst affect, but the soft, slow feeling of your friend leaving forever.
Now Orion's Belt(OB) consisting of Khang, Richard, Trinh, Cindy and myself has only 4 members here in Brisbane. OB hasn't done much at all.
So why am I feeling down. Well for one, the weather is disgusting. Man I had a good idea of the problems I'm feeling ATM, but I can't think of anything. Perhaps it's starting alone, oh yeah that's right. It's the last few days of doing absolutely nothing. I need fresh air. And now, with starting Uni, this, this dense atmosphere I feel becomes worse. I need help. However I will of course, get over this at some point.
What am I doing now? Fuck, let's smash this bitch ass feeling.
Hating uni, living like shit, eating shit, always dreaming about 'the one', doing shit all, sad and angry.
What I will do from now on.
- Exercise daily
- Clean my room
- Eat well
- Go to school happily
- Go out !
- Mostly, be productive, don't waste time
- Get all the shit I need to do, done
- Be happy, be humble, be loving, kill with kindness
Be happy.
I will post for anyone to read, I want to be an open book.
But hopefully the next post will be filled with awesome stuff, like pictures and sick as reflections of mad as days filled with rainbow unicorn fart aw shiet.
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